I The Circles Revisited I
I’ve convalesced with the best
You can see my footprints
Across the Margate Sands
Somehow lived to bear witness
To Eliot’s Waste Land
What I’ve known I now believe
A moment of dying
Turns eternity to beauty
Letters; shades of their former selves
Never fail to form the words of Gods
Archaic languages spoken fluently
Dreaming dead dreams of desolation
Obtained my very own, house of pain
See much denial but we’re all the same
Release me from the benediction of being alive
A blessing not always a guarantee life
We dead reside where death is the inspiration
No longer vainly, I commit suicide
Not for myself, but to acheive spirituality
Traverse through the means of verse
Descend into the limbo so rehearsed
Where there is nothing divine
In this dark comedy
Only the “comfort of being sad”
Converse in ranting-ramblings with the insane
Stained from the sins of an absent dad
Circling the seventh circle with Plath & Cobain
Soulless souls lost in this abyss
Said T.S.,
He’d show me fear in a handful of dust
Forsaking the God in which they trust
& I nod down to number nine
There, politicians; preacher/nationalists
Beckon me to invoke Ezra’s influence
Bestowing sight in a land of the blind
II Number 9 II
Then, as if struck by a swift-sudden chill
Groaning & shivering, almost seemed still
One man stood mumbling, looking out the gate
The dream through which moments ago I came
He began to stir, pacing & waiting
Noticing me, he approached debating,
& you! Do you know, what it is to be?
Oh Hannah, my Hannah, I’m so sorry…
Being in time, time in being; I wrote…
Never mind the swastikas on my coat,
I told a thousand Jews a thousand times,
Intended to change things from the inside.
Interest lost, he turned back for the door
Though he muttered, he spoke to me no more
I waded through vapor rising from ice
Bodies frozen still by their own device
& across this sheet was Ronnie Reagan
Freezing, begging, with the other masons
I neared the middle of the frozen room
There HE was feasting; guarding her blue tomb
You are the Beast & I am your disease.
I did as you pleased; me, you must release.
Must I now? Here you dictate what I need?
Best not hesitate! On your knees & plead.
But still quite curious, please do pray tell:
What would charm you from a warm home like hell?
I must confess, I sizzle like the best.
But I’ve nothing left & there’ll be no rest.
My suffering is, with or without you.
Turn me loose, I’ve given you more than due.
There lives no truth in the Father of Lies.
With that he stretched his mouth & outpoured flies
This buzzing a noise I did recognize
My alarm buzzed; the dream now realized
Ashes To Ashes III
The power of the prodigal son
He returns to resurface
As his life renewed begins to surge
How your home has missed you
Crying out to forgotten kingdoms
& you return with empty arms
But soon to be filled
For forget this unforgiving nepotism
& their esoteric whisperings
They fear that which has nothing to lose
& we’re penniless but priceless
For fire has tempered steel
We all wield the power to resurrect thyself
Can’t be explained until it’s learned
Until you are burned
Baptized through fire; my sins I will purge
I ascend from the circles
Back to this land of the truly lost
Entombed fabrication of commercial realities
Where every act of love has its cost
& it’s burying us alive
Here I find myself amongst
Manifestations of manufactured identities
I once mistook for individuality
Don’t step over that line
Your neighbor is watching
So soon it is that I curse my return
Sometimes a journey so dark
Can illuminate where a better life finds rest
Granting great passion to kings
Inspiring songs poetry sings
Those moments pop legends sing of great glory
But we, the weak
That sought little reward to no avail
We pursue the darker/deeper quest
Yet, one way or another
Lord of the kingdom or Prince of thieves
We all search for an empty Grail
& I am just too tired for their games
Not matter how eloquent
I leave with the loves lost too soon; leaving
For the shores of Avalon
To draw from its winter waters
To extinguish infernal burns
Go gently gather my ashes
From the lands they’ve been scattered
Collect them in a Grecian urn
END…
(excerpt from ZENspeak ©2013)
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